Don't You Remember - Adele

A lot has happened in the past few months... And with everything that has happened to me, I lost my commitment to my writing. But I am making it my goal to get back to my writing and fully commit to what I am writing. I want to be able to really, say it like it is. 


So what's the latest...? Hmmm I've got a good one in mind. 


When I was in high school I dated the same guy for two years, give or take. And I broke up with him because he was the type of guy that was always on the right path and always knew what was next in line for him. Being with some one like that put a lot of pressure for me to very put together as well. At sixteen, being pressured to know exactly what you want in life, and to be doing what's right as oppose to what's fun...  Didn't really sit with me right. So I grew a pair of balls, and broke up with him. Basically after that it was all "down hill". Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my life, but I am so far off my path I can't even see it anymore. For the past six years, I have always wondered what my life would be like if I was still with Mr. Put Together... Recently he decided to walk back into my life. I was more then curious to see what my life would be like if I had him by my side. So I broke my number one rule, and let him in...


Boy, do I regret that. It lasted a week before the kid had a total melt down and pulled the "my life is so crazy I need me time", line on my ass. C'MON! Do you really think I haven't been some how involved with dozens of men since you? I clearly know what that means. It means you just got a VERY good job, you're recently single, you're living in two cities, and you wanna be able to GET IT IN. Not saying that's what he's going to do... He's the type of guy who dates the girls he sleeps with. So for him it's not getting it in the sense that he wants to go out and meet girls, then boss and toss. No... He wants to be able to have the option of meeting some one BETTER then ME. So... You know what I have to say to all this...


Leave you're high school sweetheart exactly where they were, in high school. You may still be attracted to the person, and you'll always have a pull to the first person you were "in love" with... But let's be real people. You're going to love your first apartment, but if you go back fifteen years later, you're going to remember all the little things you hated about it.